I’ve been letting the day run me

WELCOME 2014… Good grief!

That’s all I keep thinking lately.

You see, I made a really big change this year. I quit my job, finished off in December and disappeared to the beach in Mozambique over Christmas and New Year for over two weeks. I came back fresh, happy, tanned and most importantly, ready to start a life of self-employment.

I don’t really want to delve too much into the details because this blog really isn’t about what I do for a living (and how I can  barely afford my running outfit obsession), but in short, I’m writing, putting together content marketing strategies for small businesses and writing for a few PR campaigns. Lots of odds and ends, lots of admin and quite tiring. You can read more about it here.

What’s sadly happened as a result is that by the time I get home (usually where I blog), I’m so tired that all I can think about is dinner and watching some braindead TV and then falling asleep. It’s stressful, but it’s also been hugely rewarding because I honestly did not expect to be so busy with work so soon.

I woke up this morning and decided to lay my guilt to rest by really just taking some time to write anything up here. Anything at all. I popped onto Pinterest to find some kind of inspirational running picture, and saw this:

I actually can’t tell you how true this has gotten for me. It was actually a little shock to the system. The reality is that I’ve hardly been doing enough exercise lately. I’ve been sticking to my two gym sessions a week because my trainer won’t let me miss those, but after my last running incident where I blacked out (read about it here), and with all the work, I’ve become a non-starter, literally, when it comes to running.

So this is a kind-of-confession, because the truth is, I don’t feel guilty about not blogging for the last two weeks, I really feel guilty because I haven’t been running, so I can’t really call myself a running blogger now can I?

I think I’m using the fear that I may black out again as an excuse, and I think I’ve forgotten that running is so good for stress, and somewhere in between all of that, I just don’t feel like putting on my trainers.

I’m going to try my absolute hardest to make the Delta Parkrun tomorrow, because this is now a dire state of running affairs. I must also spend some time just entering races this weekend, because that’ll surely give me some focus to train.

Anybody want to be the person who calls and makes me feel guilty if I don’t show up at Parkrun tomorrow?

*BIG SIGH*